Observation of Oneself
Internal Self-observation is a practical means to achieve a radical transformation.
To know and to observe are different. Many confuse the observation of oneself with knowing. For example, even though we know that we are seated in a living room, this, however, does not signify that we are observing the chair.
We know that at a given moment we are in a negative state, perhaps with a problem, worried about this or that matter, or in a state of distress or uncertainty, etc. This, however, does not mean that we are observing the negative state.
Do you feel antipathy towards someone? Do you dislike a certain person? Why? You may say that you know that person... Please observe that person; to know is not the same as to observe! Do not confuse knowing with observing...
The Two Worlds
To observe and to Self-observe oneself are two completely different things; however, both demand attention.
When we observe through the windows of the senses, our attention then is directed outwardly towards the external world.
Yet, in Self-observation, the senses of external perception are worthless, because attention is directed inward. Consequently, this is the factual reason why the Self-observation of inner psychological processes is difficult for the neophyte.
The point of departure of official science in its practical side is the observable. The point of departure for the work on oneself is Self-observation, the Self-observable.
The Good Master of the House
Indeed, to detach oneself from the disastrous effects of life in these tenebrous times is very difficult, but indispensable. Otherwise, one is devoured by life.
Any work that one does on oneself with the purpose of achieving a spiritual and psychic development is always related with a very well understood type of isolation. This is because the personality is the only thing that one can develop under the influence of life as we have always lived it; anything else is impossible.
We do not intend to oppose the development of the personality in any way. Obviously this is necessary in life. Yet, indeed the personality is merely something artificial. The personality is neither the truth nor the reality in us.
The Supersubstantial Bread
If we carefully observe any day of our life, we will see that we certainly do not know how to live consciously.
Our life seems like a train in motion, moving upon the fixed tracks of the mechanical and rigid habits of a vain and superficial existence.
The intriguing aspect of this matter is that it never occurs to us to modify habits. It seems that we never get weary of always repeating the same thing.
We have become petrified by our habits, nevertheless we think that we are free. We are dreadfully ugly, yet we think of ourselves as Apollo.